the day that you changed your life it was raining and too cold for may and everything couldn’t have been more beautiful. it was your half birthday, 30 and a half. that’s what the numbers said but truly embodied no measurement of your life. brooklyn smelled beautiful, you were walking against a bright red wall and looking at the water gushing out of a pipe and onto the street and smiling so big your face could have broken and you realized that this, this is what it feels like. this is what it feels like when your life is your own. when you act boldly and dare yourself to embrace the life you know you are meant for, the life that has been waiting and wavering between patience and frustration for you to grab it and try it on for size. for you to walk around in it for the first time.
maybe there was a reason all along that your half birthday was something you recognized and cherished. that when you opened a bank account for the first time, which felt like such a milestone, that you didn’t hesitate when they asked for that 4-digit pin. “just enter it into the keypad please, and then one more time.” you approached without hesitance but with what you felt like was just enough of a dramatic and secretive approach. smiling and satisfied, you whispered to your mom. “do you want to know what it is?” “yes.” “it’s my half birthday. they’ll ever guess that.”
they. you know, those people who will try to steal my money.
on your half birthday ever year, your mother calls and sings to you half of the birthday song. and not the first half, or the second half, but every word chopped into staccato little utterances. and you love this. you fucking love this. mostly because you hate the whole birthday song, but hey, you have 6 more months to avoid that.
in describing what i write about, i have recently begun adding in “i also write inspirational pieces to move people to embrace the life they should be living. to quit their day jobs. to take risks, to live in their passion.” and i realized that it was time to start taking my own advice. it was time. it was time.
it was your half birthday and it was time to change your life.
and so, you did.